My worst week ever

Gah... When was the last time i posted here.>_> Lol, wasn't in the mood to do anything. Pity this blog... I guess one day... Its going to be abandon again like my other Blogs. LOL. Well anyway, This was my worst week ever!!!!! Argh! thinking about it hurts me and brings me pain. *sighs* At first, i was happy as i get to make new friends, reunite with long lost friends and all... but... later, I had problems popping up! D: I was already having headaches on my parents, and irl friends but... this pops up!? Like... WHAT COULD HAVE GONE WORST! D= Okay, maybe i am hard headed but... you could have TOLD me what i did wrong! Bah... Only a fever isn't going to kill me. My course starts on July 2nd! =_=. But seriously... She was kinda like a family to me. But... She hates me now i guess. *sighs*. If it's not because of her, i would have been in deeper trouble as i am right now. She's been playing 1 part in my life...

Maybe i did make something wrong. Something to piss her... or maybe something that she doesn't like which i didn't realise. Gah.. Curse that attitude of mine! Why do i always hurt people and make them hate me SO MUCH and i don't even know! God... You have got to make me realise that i'm actually hurting them D: I really wanted to say sorry to her... if i ever a burden to her or... or maybe i've done something she doesn't like or so... What comes worst... I'm someone... who AVOIDS and try not to speak to the person that hates me. D: weird? YES IT IS! WTF AM I LIKE THIS! I tried to talk to her but... It the way i talk are like "I'm so pissed of you" type. THATS NOT WHAT I WANT! GOD! ALL I WANT IS TO SAY SORRY... or maybe i have bigger intentions... which is to be friends with her again... AAA!!!! I don't mind if she doesn't forgive me... but at least tell me what i've done wrong so i can't actually learn that mistake up. I really don't know what to do right now. I felt terrible for it and i seriously wanted to say sorry... to apologize. Saying sorry might not be good enough but.... but... HAIZZZ

Other then that, one of my friends are moving away from her current state to another and she won't be online for quite sometime!!! ARGH!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! how can this be! ARGH!!! This is just going to make me terrible! I'D RATHER BE A LIVING DEAD IF MY LUCK KEEPS GOING ON LIKE THIS!!!!! Nevertheless... I still have to thank her. D: When i'm sad, she was there to cheer me up... and she's always with me when ever i have any trouble or what so ever. *sighs* I'm going to miss her very much. D: I'MA WAIT TILL YOU GET YOUR LAPPY!!!! = = That i promise >_> Love her so much~ =)

I guess i'll just be a full time writer and write stories after she moves. Until she gets a lappy that is ><. Losing someone like a family... and the person who can actually make me felt better and cheering me up when i'm having a bad time won't be able to online for a period of time... I wonder if i can still bare it. I hope i can over come it also. >_< i'm sure that person doesn't wanna see me as depress as i am since she herself tries to cheer me everytime. Nursing is on July 2nd... I hope i can cope with it... haizz... What will fall upon me more. If i've done anything horrible, rude, disrespect... everything you can name it... I sincerely say I'm sorry right here right now. Maybe i'm better off being back as a gangster... Maybe i'm not worth to be called friend... or sister.. or whatever... To those who I've hurt before... I'm really sorry about it. I'm not kidding about it... I'm seriously apologize. I won't mind if any of them doesn't forgive me anyway... *sighs* Just wanted to them to know... I'm sorry...

I guess its bye for now... *sighss* i'ma retire to my room... haih...