Cleaning the junk in my head.

Okay... Maybe being a full time writer with thousand of JUNKS in my head isn't good. = = So yea, I've been going out for a few days now only to clean those junkies out of my brain. But NO! i'm not going shopping or whatever(HATED SHOPPING. Unless its about anime... then yes. >.>). I ended up, going to the shopping mall, buy a cup of ice chocolate, find a place to sit... and the rest is~~ BOM! staring at people. =.= Yea... i know. STARING AT PEOPLE! Its like... I've got nothing ELSE to do! Seriously... I'm like a weirdo sitting down at the bench, drinking my iced chocolate and staring at people doing their shopping, talking, walking, standing... even couple whispering. Gah! Maybe shopping malls isn't a place to clear my head. Its over distracting. = = Then, a kid came up to me and sat beside of me. That kid never took his eyes off from me. What? Am i doing something weird? or... Am i wearing my shirt the other way round? But.. Hell no! i always made sure i wear it correctly. >_> In ORDER to know why is the kid looking at me, I asked (in hokkien)

Me: What are you staring at? Are you ok?

Kid: (shocked then shakes his head)

Me: .... Where's your parents? Aren't you with them? (Yea.. i know thats a silly question.)

Kid: (Eyes become glassy) I went to toilet... then when i come out... i can't find them!!! (cries)

Me: (Shocked and look around as people looks back at me thinking i bullied the lil Kid.) Ahh... Hey. Which toilet did you go just now?

Kid: The one nearest to Jusco... (talks between the cries)

Me: Alright... but you shouldn't be here. You parents might be waiting for you there.

Kid:But... i can't find them... (cries) I want my mummy!!!!!

Me:Don't worry!!! I'm sure they are looking for you also. Come on, lets get you in front of Jusco.

Kid: A... A... (chokes) Are you sure i can find them there? (sniffs)

Me: Yes, now come on.

Then, i walk together with him to our destination. The kid was still crying as you can hear sobs coming from him and... not only that... his been holding on to my shirt VERY tight. Just as we reached just in front of Jusco, I heard a woman shouting. "AH WEN!!!" Let me tell you... NEVER SHOUT LIKE THAT IN SHOPPING MALLS! Yes... That voice shocked me... ALOT! So i turn to that direction and saw a woman running towards me.

Me: Hey, is that your mom?

Kid:(Looks around and lets go my shirt before running towards the woman) MAMA!!!!

Me: (Urgh... come on... this is SO like in the movies.)

Walking towards her, I told the woman that the kid came out form the toilet and to my guess, you weren't there and it gave this lil kid a shocked. Thats why he wondered around to look for you. The woman was SO grateful she kept thanking me. I also told the kid, that if he can't find his parents or lost. Just stay in the same place and a magic will happen. Of course, the kid is curious and kept asking what magic this and that. So i told him, that it was a magic called Family love. Just wait where you are, and the magic will pull your family to find you. LOL!! I know! THATS SO NOT ME! But it was so cute when the kid goes excited saying there magic and stuff! The woman thanked me again before moving on to their shopping activity. As for me... I walk back to the bench, hoping no one took my precious spot. Unfortunately, my luck isn't that good enough. >_>;

But i guess I had wasted enough time in that shopping mall so i headed back home. Taking a cold bath, I sat down hoping to get something interesting flowing and it did. I've written quite alot of pages up until i couldn't find anymore ideas. So, i head to bed early yesterday. Today... today was quite okay i guess. There's nothing hard happening and my story is moving smoothly. I guess Shopping mall's isn't a bad place to wash my mind after all! LOL! Maybe i'll take a rest after finishing this blog. I've been typing for the past few days and my EYES are aching for rest. LMAO!

I guess it'll be all for today! lol. Oh ya!!!! not done yet! I've got to say Thank you for so many people! =) At first, it'll be my Brazillian Brother~ He was always there for me everytime i needed company. Then, my Europe Brother as well! He is by far the best niisan i have ( no offence Brazillian Niisan, your also one of it =D) Then, Ryoji Niisan also! His always kind and gentle hearted and he'll always tries to help me when ever i'm in a big emotional trouble. x) Thankies all my beloved brothers! My Nesama, is never once being left out also! xD And... Oh ya! Jessica jie! =) I appreciate everything you have done for me. From supporting me during my hard times and even helped me during the games, I'ma promise to study SUPER HARD when i enter nursing! x) Not to forget, someone important to me also. I'm not sure if she'll be able to read this blog but... Thank you so much! and i miss you alot also! >_>

Other then that! It'll be all my friends also xD. I don't know why am i saying this all but... I just felt like i have to. xD I know! I'm getting weirder and weirder!! xD Bye for now~~~

My worst week ever

Gah... When was the last time i posted here.>_> Lol, wasn't in the mood to do anything. Pity this blog... I guess one day... Its going to be abandon again like my other Blogs. LOL. Well anyway, This was my worst week ever!!!!! Argh! thinking about it hurts me and brings me pain. *sighs* At first, i was happy as i get to make new friends, reunite with long lost friends and all... but... later, I had problems popping up! D: I was already having headaches on my parents, and irl friends but... this pops up!? Like... WHAT COULD HAVE GONE WORST! D= Okay, maybe i am hard headed but... you could have TOLD me what i did wrong! Bah... Only a fever isn't going to kill me. My course starts on July 2nd! =_=. But seriously... She was kinda like a family to me. But... She hates me now i guess. *sighs*. If it's not because of her, i would have been in deeper trouble as i am right now. She's been playing 1 part in my life...

Maybe i did make something wrong. Something to piss her... or maybe something that she doesn't like which i didn't realise. Gah.. Curse that attitude of mine! Why do i always hurt people and make them hate me SO MUCH and i don't even know! God... You have got to make me realise that i'm actually hurting them D: I really wanted to say sorry to her... if i ever a burden to her or... or maybe i've done something she doesn't like or so... What comes worst... I'm someone... who AVOIDS and try not to speak to the person that hates me. D: weird? YES IT IS! WTF AM I LIKE THIS! I tried to talk to her but... It the way i talk are like "I'm so pissed of you" type. THATS NOT WHAT I WANT! GOD! ALL I WANT IS TO SAY SORRY... or maybe i have bigger intentions... which is to be friends with her again... AAA!!!! I don't mind if she doesn't forgive me... but at least tell me what i've done wrong so i can't actually learn that mistake up. I really don't know what to do right now. I felt terrible for it and i seriously wanted to say sorry... to apologize. Saying sorry might not be good enough but.... but... HAIZZZ

Other then that, one of my friends are moving away from her current state to another and she won't be online for quite sometime!!! ARGH!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! how can this be! ARGH!!! This is just going to make me terrible! I'D RATHER BE A LIVING DEAD IF MY LUCK KEEPS GOING ON LIKE THIS!!!!! Nevertheless... I still have to thank her. D: When i'm sad, she was there to cheer me up... and she's always with me when ever i have any trouble or what so ever. *sighs* I'm going to miss her very much. D: I'MA WAIT TILL YOU GET YOUR LAPPY!!!! = = That i promise >_> Love her so much~ =)

I guess i'll just be a full time writer and write stories after she moves. Until she gets a lappy that is ><. Losing someone like a family... and the person who can actually make me felt better and cheering me up when i'm having a bad time won't be able to online for a period of time... I wonder if i can still bare it. I hope i can over come it also. >_< i'm sure that person doesn't wanna see me as depress as i am since she herself tries to cheer me everytime. Nursing is on July 2nd... I hope i can cope with it... haizz... What will fall upon me more. If i've done anything horrible, rude, disrespect... everything you can name it... I sincerely say I'm sorry right here right now. Maybe i'm better off being back as a gangster... Maybe i'm not worth to be called friend... or sister.. or whatever... To those who I've hurt before... I'm really sorry about it. I'm not kidding about it... I'm seriously apologize. I won't mind if any of them doesn't forgive me anyway... *sighs* Just wanted to them to know... I'm sorry...

I guess its bye for now... *sighss* i'ma retire to my room... haih...

Wesak day

It's been quite a long time since i last updated my blog. X_x i don wanna crap about my boring days in my blog everyday. = = it turn out.. boring also =.=. Wesak day's today~ waii waii~ Um... Actually its over... =/ its at the morning.. now is like.... already 9.38 pm... = = Well anyway. Wesak day is VERY important for buddhist. From what i know, the Buddha's 3 event of his life, which is his birth, his enlightement and the day he died... lies on the same day. D= Amazing!? LOL. Wesak day's here~ waii waii~*runs around hiding for place to hide* yes... i know... not running because of Wesak day's here! BUT! I'm running because i had to wake up 7 am in the morning! T_T I was having my nice, comfortable and slumber sleep when my mom came into my room... and... "WAKE UP! TIME TO WAKE UP! FASTER GO TAKE BATH AND GET READY!" I was like... WTF!!!! I got so shocked, i jumped from my bed, ended up unbalance and fell down my bed from the side! IT HURTS! I landed on my elbow lightly! D= IT HURTS LIKE HELL!!!!!!

After i reached the temple.... WORKING TIME! yey~ I'm in charge of the some deserts, deserts arranging and packaging~ It sounds easy? yes? yea.. most people think it is.... but.. NO!!! ITS NOT EASY! It took us HOURS! we started at 8 am... and finish at 10.30 am! STANDING FOR 2 HOURS! LIKE MY LEG IS SORE AND TIRED! whats the best, there's no fan!!!!! ITS SO HOT! I WAS SWEATING LIKE A PIG! =.= After i finished working, i sat down and rest as me and my friends started talking and stuff. talking talking talking talking away, it was time for chanting as we sat down and chant. After that.. WORK AGAIN~ CAN YOU IMAGINE! PEOPLE ARE TALKING FOOD MOUNTAIN HIGH! It was like... so much. WTF!? they didn't eat since yesterday!? A side all the working and all, I did had fun. Getting around with people, helping them, see their smilling face. Satisfites me~ xD

After all those temples and stuff, I was totally worn out! not to mention lack of sleep! D= I was overly exhausted! T_T But we didn't headed straight home. D=. We stop a few places in town for some delivery then home. Just as i reached home, I went to the letter box and received a bunch of letters! It was like... few weeks of letters!!!!!! = =. My family NEVER bothers to take the letters in. LAZY! BLEAH!!!!!!! and guess what!? I GOT INTO NURSING! YEY!!!!!!! my course starts at july 2nd! YES!!!!! *dances around* xD Can't wait to go for nursing on July 2nd~ xD.