Reunion in school? or Disaster in reunion?

Uhh... Its been so long since my last post here. >_>. Yesterday, a friend of mine called me to tell me there's reunion in school and stuffs. As usual, I FELT not wanting to go. Wanna know why? I DON'T LIKE HIGH SCHOOL! THATS WHY!!!! RAWRS~!!(its just a reunion... there's no school anyway) But they still manage to give my LAZY ass a kick to go out. Luckly i got permission from my mom to go out. *LUCKY!* So yeah... I HAD to wake up 7 AM in the morning just for that Idiotic Reunion. How COOL is that!? But anyhow, I got up at 7 AM and played RO for a while then i went out to start my "reunion" journey. And you know whats SUPER funny!? I GOT STUCK IN THE TRAFFIC JAM FOR THE GOD DAMN 1 HOUR!

After all the stupid Traffic and all, I reached my EX school at 9 am. =_= Talk about being LATE. My friends who were "happily" waiting gave me a NICE and WARM welcome. Wanna know what it is? ITS called!!!!! STRANGLING! Ah~ YES! i know~! Its the BEST medicine. a strangle a day, gives your life nearer to the coffin. =D. Nevertheless, after all the strangling and stuff oh... do include the 10 minutes on TRYING TO GET THE OXYGEN INTO MY LUNGS breathing... We headed out to "visit" our former teacher(She was invited to join us). The teacher as usual Bombared us with millions and millions of questions. And of course, she also questioned me. D: (Malaysian way of course and names about being author for their privatcy)

Accounting Teacher: Hey, Su Ling! what are you taking for your college?

Me: Uhh... i thought you already know what i'm going to take...

Accounting Teacher: Ahh, yes! you want to be a nurse. Did you get it?

Me: Yes, i did. Its in Lam Wah Ee Nursing College.

Yoong: WHAT!? You sure or not wan? Got that white white flying without legs one you know! So many somemore!

Christer: Yalo! There arr, Many That "Dirty" things you know. Becarefull arrr...

Me: *looks at them dumbfounded*

Accounting Teacher: Haiyo, Won't want la. Don't simply say la.

San San: Yala, Touch wood Wei! Pity this Air Su Ling la~

Me: *speechless*

Yoong: Haa? okay lo. Don't want to say lo~

Me: *still speechless*

Well... Most of the time, I REMAIN not talking but i'm not gonna write it down. It'll be SUPER long if i do. >.>;; So... After all the bombaring of question and all, we had lunch in one of the food stall near the school. OHHHHH!!!!! HOW I MISSED THE PENANG'S MOST FAMOUS HORRIBLE FOOD!!!!! yes! i know! It TASTED so horrible, SO oily and guess what!? ITS SO!!!!! Small in amount. -_-;; Gah... what a day... you know what they do mostly!? chit chatings! GOD! i HAVE nothing to talk about! well... not really... their topics are always not suit for me. So instead of wasting my time to listen things further~ I tried to excuse myself to go back so i can online with my friends but NO! They didn't let me!!! D: They tied me up to the pole and continue CHIT CHATINGS! (i'm joking about the pole thinggy. XD but they just won't let me go home! how evil is that!!!!) Guess what? nah you can't guess, nor you have the chance to... wanna know why!???? Cause i'm not letting you thats why. They were talking NON stop for like... 4 HOURS and after that, They MAKE me go SHOPPING with them!

Didn't i tell you how much i HATED shopping? So yea... it was my worst nightmare... I had to follow them to Shopping FOR SO MANY HOURS!!!! GAH! they even forbit me to go in the ANIME shop! WTF!? They can do their shopping... WHY CAN'T I!? I was SO pissed i almost split up with their group and walk for myself! -_- But i didn't... regretly... *sighs* after all those walkings and stuffs and eatings and more strangling, they let me go home... AT LAST~ It was already about 5.30 in the afternoon. D: I drive home... have a nice warm bath~ and online. SO SORRY FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO ONLINE JUST NOW MY FRIENDS!... My bad luck... still strikes meh.... I was too tired to play. T_T *bangs wall* After all those walkings and running and strangling? yea... I'm SO tired... Thats why... I decided not to play... And HERE I AM! after leaving this blog to the winter cold time and not doing anything about it! yes! i know! I'M SO SORRY MAH BLOGGY! its just a pity i can't hug it. >_> Nyah... I hope my apologize is accepted by my bloogy. >_<;; Ugh... i think i better go for now XD EHH!! nooo!!! Before i end this, I just remembered i had something coming into me when i was talking to my friend, Kate a few days ago. I didn't know what to name it still. XD but i'll just put it in lmao~ XD It's kinda weird but i hope its not too weird. lol... There it goes:

The fore feeling of a person,
falls into a deep pool of thoughts,
once they said,
pain was just a pain.

Love was just a love.
But what truly lies beyond everyone isn't love,
pain and sufferings but life.
The true meaning of life is how we make it and how we live with it.

To then,
they say Life is meaningless and shouts for a route to escape.
But yet they knew,
There are no route of escape.

There's only a route of hope,
route to endure and route to move on.
A hope to live and to love will decide what you have and what you will be.
A route to endure decides how strong your real self is,
and a route to move on to achieve none other then a life you once dream off.
Never to give up... and never to blame.

A life is just a life.

-Lil Einjeru-

Cleaning the junk in my head.

Okay... Maybe being a full time writer with thousand of JUNKS in my head isn't good. = = So yea, I've been going out for a few days now only to clean those junkies out of my brain. But NO! i'm not going shopping or whatever(HATED SHOPPING. Unless its about anime... then yes. >.>). I ended up, going to the shopping mall, buy a cup of ice chocolate, find a place to sit... and the rest is~~ BOM! staring at people. =.= Yea... i know. STARING AT PEOPLE! Its like... I've got nothing ELSE to do! Seriously... I'm like a weirdo sitting down at the bench, drinking my iced chocolate and staring at people doing their shopping, talking, walking, standing... even couple whispering. Gah! Maybe shopping malls isn't a place to clear my head. Its over distracting. = = Then, a kid came up to me and sat beside of me. That kid never took his eyes off from me. What? Am i doing something weird? or... Am i wearing my shirt the other way round? But.. Hell no! i always made sure i wear it correctly. >_> In ORDER to know why is the kid looking at me, I asked (in hokkien)

Me: What are you staring at? Are you ok?

Kid: (shocked then shakes his head)

Me: .... Where's your parents? Aren't you with them? (Yea.. i know thats a silly question.)

Kid: (Eyes become glassy) I went to toilet... then when i come out... i can't find them!!! (cries)

Me: (Shocked and look around as people looks back at me thinking i bullied the lil Kid.) Ahh... Hey. Which toilet did you go just now?

Kid: The one nearest to Jusco... (talks between the cries)

Me: Alright... but you shouldn't be here. You parents might be waiting for you there.

Kid:But... i can't find them... (cries) I want my mummy!!!!!

Me:Don't worry!!! I'm sure they are looking for you also. Come on, lets get you in front of Jusco.

Kid: A... A... (chokes) Are you sure i can find them there? (sniffs)

Me: Yes, now come on.

Then, i walk together with him to our destination. The kid was still crying as you can hear sobs coming from him and... not only that... his been holding on to my shirt VERY tight. Just as we reached just in front of Jusco, I heard a woman shouting. "AH WEN!!!" Let me tell you... NEVER SHOUT LIKE THAT IN SHOPPING MALLS! Yes... That voice shocked me... ALOT! So i turn to that direction and saw a woman running towards me.

Me: Hey, is that your mom?

Kid:(Looks around and lets go my shirt before running towards the woman) MAMA!!!!

Me: (Urgh... come on... this is SO like in the movies.)

Walking towards her, I told the woman that the kid came out form the toilet and to my guess, you weren't there and it gave this lil kid a shocked. Thats why he wondered around to look for you. The woman was SO grateful she kept thanking me. I also told the kid, that if he can't find his parents or lost. Just stay in the same place and a magic will happen. Of course, the kid is curious and kept asking what magic this and that. So i told him, that it was a magic called Family love. Just wait where you are, and the magic will pull your family to find you. LOL!! I know! THATS SO NOT ME! But it was so cute when the kid goes excited saying there magic and stuff! The woman thanked me again before moving on to their shopping activity. As for me... I walk back to the bench, hoping no one took my precious spot. Unfortunately, my luck isn't that good enough. >_>;

But i guess I had wasted enough time in that shopping mall so i headed back home. Taking a cold bath, I sat down hoping to get something interesting flowing and it did. I've written quite alot of pages up until i couldn't find anymore ideas. So, i head to bed early yesterday. Today... today was quite okay i guess. There's nothing hard happening and my story is moving smoothly. I guess Shopping mall's isn't a bad place to wash my mind after all! LOL! Maybe i'll take a rest after finishing this blog. I've been typing for the past few days and my EYES are aching for rest. LMAO!

I guess it'll be all for today! lol. Oh ya!!!! not done yet! I've got to say Thank you for so many people! =) At first, it'll be my Brazillian Brother~ He was always there for me everytime i needed company. Then, my Europe Brother as well! He is by far the best niisan i have ( no offence Brazillian Niisan, your also one of it =D) Then, Ryoji Niisan also! His always kind and gentle hearted and he'll always tries to help me when ever i'm in a big emotional trouble. x) Thankies all my beloved brothers! My Nesama, is never once being left out also! xD And... Oh ya! Jessica jie! =) I appreciate everything you have done for me. From supporting me during my hard times and even helped me during the games, I'ma promise to study SUPER HARD when i enter nursing! x) Not to forget, someone important to me also. I'm not sure if she'll be able to read this blog but... Thank you so much! and i miss you alot also! >_>

Other then that! It'll be all my friends also xD. I don't know why am i saying this all but... I just felt like i have to. xD I know! I'm getting weirder and weirder!! xD Bye for now~~~

My worst week ever

Gah... When was the last time i posted here.>_> Lol, wasn't in the mood to do anything. Pity this blog... I guess one day... Its going to be abandon again like my other Blogs. LOL. Well anyway, This was my worst week ever!!!!! Argh! thinking about it hurts me and brings me pain. *sighs* At first, i was happy as i get to make new friends, reunite with long lost friends and all... but... later, I had problems popping up! D: I was already having headaches on my parents, and irl friends but... this pops up!? Like... WHAT COULD HAVE GONE WORST! D= Okay, maybe i am hard headed but... you could have TOLD me what i did wrong! Bah... Only a fever isn't going to kill me. My course starts on July 2nd! =_=. But seriously... She was kinda like a family to me. But... She hates me now i guess. *sighs*. If it's not because of her, i would have been in deeper trouble as i am right now. She's been playing 1 part in my life...

Maybe i did make something wrong. Something to piss her... or maybe something that she doesn't like which i didn't realise. Gah.. Curse that attitude of mine! Why do i always hurt people and make them hate me SO MUCH and i don't even know! God... You have got to make me realise that i'm actually hurting them D: I really wanted to say sorry to her... if i ever a burden to her or... or maybe i've done something she doesn't like or so... What comes worst... I'm someone... who AVOIDS and try not to speak to the person that hates me. D: weird? YES IT IS! WTF AM I LIKE THIS! I tried to talk to her but... It the way i talk are like "I'm so pissed of you" type. THATS NOT WHAT I WANT! GOD! ALL I WANT IS TO SAY SORRY... or maybe i have bigger intentions... which is to be friends with her again... AAA!!!! I don't mind if she doesn't forgive me... but at least tell me what i've done wrong so i can't actually learn that mistake up. I really don't know what to do right now. I felt terrible for it and i seriously wanted to say sorry... to apologize. Saying sorry might not be good enough but.... but... HAIZZZ

Other then that, one of my friends are moving away from her current state to another and she won't be online for quite sometime!!! ARGH!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! how can this be! ARGH!!! This is just going to make me terrible! I'D RATHER BE A LIVING DEAD IF MY LUCK KEEPS GOING ON LIKE THIS!!!!! Nevertheless... I still have to thank her. D: When i'm sad, she was there to cheer me up... and she's always with me when ever i have any trouble or what so ever. *sighs* I'm going to miss her very much. D: I'MA WAIT TILL YOU GET YOUR LAPPY!!!! = = That i promise >_> Love her so much~ =)

I guess i'll just be a full time writer and write stories after she moves. Until she gets a lappy that is ><. Losing someone like a family... and the person who can actually make me felt better and cheering me up when i'm having a bad time won't be able to online for a period of time... I wonder if i can still bare it. I hope i can over come it also. >_< i'm sure that person doesn't wanna see me as depress as i am since she herself tries to cheer me everytime. Nursing is on July 2nd... I hope i can cope with it... haizz... What will fall upon me more. If i've done anything horrible, rude, disrespect... everything you can name it... I sincerely say I'm sorry right here right now. Maybe i'm better off being back as a gangster... Maybe i'm not worth to be called friend... or sister.. or whatever... To those who I've hurt before... I'm really sorry about it. I'm not kidding about it... I'm seriously apologize. I won't mind if any of them doesn't forgive me anyway... *sighs* Just wanted to them to know... I'm sorry...

I guess its bye for now... *sighss* i'ma retire to my room... haih...

Wesak day

It's been quite a long time since i last updated my blog. X_x i don wanna crap about my boring days in my blog everyday. = = it turn out.. boring also =.=. Wesak day's today~ waii waii~ Um... Actually its over... =/ its at the morning.. now is like.... already 9.38 pm... = = Well anyway. Wesak day is VERY important for buddhist. From what i know, the Buddha's 3 event of his life, which is his birth, his enlightement and the day he died... lies on the same day. D= Amazing!? LOL. Wesak day's here~ waii waii~*runs around hiding for place to hide* yes... i know... not running because of Wesak day's here! BUT! I'm running because i had to wake up 7 am in the morning! T_T I was having my nice, comfortable and slumber sleep when my mom came into my room... and... "WAKE UP! TIME TO WAKE UP! FASTER GO TAKE BATH AND GET READY!" I was like... WTF!!!! I got so shocked, i jumped from my bed, ended up unbalance and fell down my bed from the side! IT HURTS! I landed on my elbow lightly! D= IT HURTS LIKE HELL!!!!!!

After i reached the temple.... WORKING TIME! yey~ I'm in charge of the some deserts, deserts arranging and packaging~ It sounds easy? yes? yea.. most people think it is.... but.. NO!!! ITS NOT EASY! It took us HOURS! we started at 8 am... and finish at 10.30 am! STANDING FOR 2 HOURS! LIKE MY LEG IS SORE AND TIRED! whats the best, there's no fan!!!!! ITS SO HOT! I WAS SWEATING LIKE A PIG! =.= After i finished working, i sat down and rest as me and my friends started talking and stuff. talking talking talking talking away, it was time for chanting as we sat down and chant. After that.. WORK AGAIN~ CAN YOU IMAGINE! PEOPLE ARE TALKING FOOD MOUNTAIN HIGH! It was like... so much. WTF!? they didn't eat since yesterday!? A side all the working and all, I did had fun. Getting around with people, helping them, see their smilling face. Satisfites me~ xD

After all those temples and stuff, I was totally worn out! not to mention lack of sleep! D= I was overly exhausted! T_T But we didn't headed straight home. D=. We stop a few places in town for some delivery then home. Just as i reached home, I went to the letter box and received a bunch of letters! It was like... few weeks of letters!!!!!! = =. My family NEVER bothers to take the letters in. LAZY! BLEAH!!!!!!! and guess what!? I GOT INTO NURSING! YEY!!!!!!! my course starts at july 2nd! YES!!!!! *dances around* xD Can't wait to go for nursing on July 2nd~ xD.

bored ness and virus for the day!

AH!!!! I was hoping today to be a better day then yesterday! the more i hope the more i wish i can enjoy today and have fun! Maybe laugh till i can't even eat!!! But guess what, IT WAS WORST!!!!! My dad BOMB me to wake me up early in the morning(Yes, my dad is back from working for a week.) just because he said that i was SLEEPING MY TIME AWAY! Like, I went to bed around 3 a.m in the morning!!!!! AND HE WOKE ME UP FROM MY SLUMBER DREAMING WORLD AT 10 A.M!!!!! He was so annoiying, he won't let me sleep back! WTF! I want my sleep!!!!! -rolls over floor crying!(ROFC)- Yes, i know. You heard of ROFL... BUT THIS IS ROFC! Roll Over Floor Crying!

No thanks to him, i was unable to sleep because he went out leaving the home pure empty! how can i go to sleep when there's no one at home! Dissapointed, I had no choice but to seek company from the precious computer. -hugs computer- After switching on the computer and stuff, I went again to read stories written by the Author. YES! PURE GOODNESS! This story was shorter compared to yesterday's one but it was still good! After reading 1 of the Author's stories, I wanted to continue to write my story which was hanging for weeks! ITS NONE OTHER THEN!!!!!! Ride Off With Me; Chapter 8 (yes yes i haven't started yet. Didn't come up with a plot yet =_=) Opening microsoft words, I continue to stare blankly at the computer screen. Few ideas come and go and then i was writting a few pages only to realise.... "Eh... wait! It's not going to fit the last few chapters. OUT OF STORY TITTLE!!!!!" Having no choice, I had to erase everything and start from the begining again! STARES AT COMPUTER SCREEN!!!!! Someone... get me out from this bored ness...

Taking a break from story writting(Ended up with a blank page) I went for some chattings in messenger and a friend of mine~ Rara-Chan was talking to meh~ yey! but the rest of meh friend in messenger seems dead = =. They are online BUT! no respond! what the hell! if your not there! Why BOTHER TO ON MESSENGER! Talking to Rara-chan was fun! =D Not until! She sends meh a picture. A picture on her and Tifa. Saying she looks like her = = (Tifa looks nicer to me =P) No offends Rara!!! Don't kill meh!!! T_T. BUT!!!! my bad luck kept coming! D= The picture was infected by VIRUS! must be infected when she was sending it over. HER COMPUTER WAS FREE OF VIRUS! My god! why is my luck so bad! I can't even go into the internet nor open any folders! AAA!!!!! IMAGINE THE BORED NESS! Using spybot, the virus was cleaned! YEY for me! no more virus! -dances around- However... Bored ness still lingers around... -sighs- Everyone in messenger seems DEAD! only a few friends of mine are seriously ONLINE! Michiyo, Rara-chan, Teo, Wen jie, and my mei mei(Cherly if i'm not wrong X_x). Others are merely DEAD!!!! like... NO REPLYS! put aside those with busy signs and away signs. I know those are already busy with something but... sighs... i guess complaining doesn't really work. = =

Then, when i was having my lunch/dinner (was at 4 p.m anyway) my hamster, Hammy( my Cousin named her) who was on the computer table ate my chicken! D= She ATE MEH CHICKEN! She was like *sniff sniff, looks around* then *sniffs sniffs, Crawls* and at last! *sniff sniff, steal meh chicken to eat!* I was like "HAMMY! THATS MY CHICKEN!!!" I wanted to take it back but she keeps turning her body away and even bit me! SHE BIT ME! What kind of pet BITES their own MASTER! After Hammy ate till she is full, She puts back the left over chicken back at my plate. WTF! HAMMY! YOU ATE ALMOST 1/3 OF THE CHICKEN! HOW CAN YOU PLACE IT BACK!(the chicken is cut into smaller pieces by the way. =_=) But thats SOO not all! She went for my vegie! MAH VEGIE! GRR!!!! i had no choice but to place her back at her house! what kind of pet eats their master's food!!!!!

Anyway... Don't want to mention that hamster of mine anymore. =_=;; Yesterday night was pure fun! Me, my brazillian brother, Elaine and my mei(Cherly <-- still not sure if its correct >.<) were chatting until early this morning today. My Brazillian brother was so cute he kept saying the things about himself without feeling embarress. Like... IF YOU DON'T FEEL EMBARESS DO THINK OF MEH! Why? I added him in the convo with my friends! D= And he were like saying all about his wild self without even thinking how i felt towards meh friends! T_T. IT WAS SO EMBARESSING! but other then that! I WAS LAUGHING MY LUNGS OUT! I can imagine the faces of Elaine when he said those words just before she went offline! LMFAO! i kept laughing i CANNOT stop myself! Not to mention having a stomach cramp to bed! = = yea.. I laugh too much i had stomach cramp.. Imagine how funny it was! At least i DID have fun right? althought it ended around 1 a.m today. But its still fun! but later that. IT WAS BORING! I slept at 3 a.m and was bombared by my dad to wake up! -Sighsssssssssssssssssssss-

I guess that'll be for today~ LOL i'll write again tomorrow or other time xD

Meh self and today's boredness day~

Nya! meh Lil Einjeru! nya... i guess everyone already know... - - But this is ma first time to blog about ma life. Maybe including ma story writing life. Hopefully meh doesn't leave this blog to the isolated corner.

Anyway! Meh life was horrible as far as i can think of. Anyhow, to release meh tension, sadness and meh feelings which was kept way too long in ma heart, me found a good way and it is to release them while writting stories. At first, i never liked writting stories! It was like ARGH! I'm not gonna write THAT many words! Not until one day that i felt so lonely, so tired and so hurt, i went to surf in the internet and found an interesting story website. I went to read and it eventually interest me. I started to write short stories about my life but using other character to carry my emotion. English wasn't my best language also but i eventually posted the story out and i've got a few feed backs and advice about the characters. It acted like and advice to me also. It was the first time i felt that i can actually express my own feelings. The feeling about my family, friends, my life, my love life.

So, i continue to write stories up until now. Althought my main line isn't a writer, I still continue to write the stories. I know that my english isn't strong, i still shared my thoughts, my idea, my feelings and last but not least, the stories i've made for people to read. Although i'm writting stories to express my feelings, to ease my tension and to make myself calm, i was hoping that i can enter the nursing line. Yup! nursing! one of my aim in life! i've always wanted to help people. Old, young, kids, everyone! LOL yea, i know, but really i feel so happy when i get to help people. The smiles on thier faces when they are cured or treated with medication really makes my face smile! Just after high school, I went to apply for meh nursing course and i was so excited when i received their letter the next month. Opening the letter, I pray that i was accepted, but i didn't. LOL. Devastated and sad, I had no choice but to apply nursing in other college.

Now, I'm only waiting and hoping to be accepted by any of the nursing colleges. Upon waiting for meh application to be accepted. Meh obviously had nothing to do except chatting and writting stories. So meh decided to open a blog to fill up meh time! nyahahaha~ *ahem* anyway, today wasn't a really good day anyway. It was so boring i felt like my body part's rotting! AAAA i don't wanna rot yet! So, to entertain myself i went searching for some stories to read then i went to watch some movies, then i read stories, then movies, then stories. ARGH!!! disaster!!! why is the world so bored! later then, i eventually found a nice stories that fills up my time. It has SO many chapters and SO many other stories! and the Author was so good! i got hooked up in the instant i read them! I eventually stayed in front of the computer and read the stories for hours! And i didn't even realise it was already 8 p.m in the evening when i actually felt my stomach playing drums asking for some food after working for so many hours. After having my dinner, i came back to the stories and while i was reading half way, my big bobby brother pulled me out from meh sit cause he wanted to use the computer to do some settings. IT WAS SO UNFAIR!!!

*ROARS* Hate it when my brother does that! GRR!!! not only he kicked me off the computer, he even closed the website that i was having fun reading! luckily i already added it in my favourites if not! i'm sure to strangle him to the last breathe of his! = = After he finished using the computer, I went back to the website i read the story till it ended and it never failed to make me smile. Yes! good story! i'ma go read the other story the Author wrote tomorrow! It was then, i had a new idea for meh story and meh wrote it in microsoft words and will continue it again tomorrow and NO!! i'm not copying that Author's idea, its a new and fresh idea from my brain (Not fresh from the oven!!!!! my brain isn't an oven!!!) But of course, i'm not sure where to post the story just yet. =_= i hope i can find a website where i can share my stories with everyone. =P