happy 2010? Not for me perhaps...

Well.. 2010... Is here and I'm still as miserable as it is... But I've decided... even if I'm drowning, Dying, bleeding... I have to let her go... I love her way too much to actually hurt her... I prefer her happy smiles... her happy self... but I'd like it more if it was me who makes her happy... I'd love to spend 2010 together like we did in 2009... But reality is there, grinning and smiling evilly down at me... hindering me from what i really wished for...

So yeah... I've decided to let her go... Cause if she really do love me... She'll come back to me... and I know there and then she's mine... but if she doesn't come back to me... I'll wish her all the best and will support her towards her happiness... No matter what I still love her..

But stepping into 2010... reminds me of the time where we spend new year's eve together... We drank alcohol and i got drunk... Waking up in her arms... I cherish those moments alot... But I prefer to have these beautiful memories and recreating a new and better one.. not a dull and sad one... but nothing can be helped i guess...

Still... Happy 2010. I wish everyone all the best... And i wish her.. to always, always be happy, stress free and away from diseases. I love you lots "S"... And i loved you since 2007...